embrace my

Disaster

LEERE (EMPTINESS)

Have you ever struggled to express and exercise your inner demons in conversation? Have you ever tried writing out how you feel and putting it to music like poetry? Embrace my disaster is a vent used to release the evil energy and thoughts we build up inside. Over a number of years waves of anger and sadness hit like bricks and the only way to deflect the pain is to reflect back at the world. I personally am a quiet individual but if you ever truly want to get to know who I am you can find it in our music. Just know these songs aren't all the person I am today. Today I'm a blessed and happy person but I wasn't always that way. Prepare to dive into a world where happiness seems miles away and hurt is so painful that there's only hysteria and laughter. The image of me will help you to see and embrace my disaster. - VJ

TEIF DRINNEN (DEEP INSIDE)

V1: Spent my life digging holes I never could climb out of. Never really had control forever hating to love. Maybe someday | can smile and find some hope to hold onto. Maybe just once in a while I'd stop longing to hurt you. Pre Chorus: In meinem Kopf wollen wir alle weh tun (in my mind we all want to hurt) Like the sun's descent we will all be fading to cuz. Chorus: (Tief Drinnen) the thought of watching you suffer helps me sleep at night (Tief Drinnen) I'm gonna use words as daggers to tear apart your life. V2: Many years told that I'm worthless. Playing games with my mind. Down below beneath the surface the horror you will find. Maybe someday | can smile and find some hope to hold onto. Maybe just once in a while I'd stop longing to hurt you. Chorus Bridge: So come and take a look inside! Pre Chorus Chorus

TAKE ME AS I AM

V1: Was sitting on the front steps, empty glass in hand. Refilled it to the top rim. I couldn't even stand. Was leaned against the front door, glazed look in my eyes. Drowning out the insults. Hoping i would die... X2 Chorus: Take me as i am, cuz i won't let go. I don't understand, I won't take no for an answer. V2: Was shattered into pieces, fractions of what was. Divided up among you. And swept away like dust. Left bleeding on the carpet, emptied all my sores. Slowly liquidated. Pooling on the floor.. X2 Chorus Bridge Chorus X2

RACHE SUCHEN (SEEK REVENGE)

V1: It's time to take what we have earned. Feeding the fires and watch them burn. I thought of so many ways to set your whole life ablaze. We bend the rules and break their hearts. And disassemble their world apart. I always wanted to see the different ways you can bleed. Pre chorus: Ich will nicht leben oder atmen. (I don't want to live or breath) When I'm gone I know where I'II descend. Meine holle ist für mich gekommen (my hell has come for me) Satan's wrath has finally summoned. So send me back to him! Chorus: I never ask you to save me. Just let me live my own life. Cuz when i finally stop breathing. Dig deeper so i can not rise, rache suchen....... V2: Prepare to enter a world unknown. A common ground that we call home. Feeling like madness prevails, the dirt that's under your nails. One final chance to take control. Eliminate my scattered soul. You had the chance to reject, plenty of time to reflect. Pre Chorus Chorus X2

DISAPPEAR

Chorus: I can't believe that l've done this to me. I've watched my world fade into black, and i'm not coming back... anymore X5 Verse: Time has shattered our bond, and I'm searching beyond, to a life I can love and adore. All of the signs went ignored, as I ripped out the cord, the desire to be here's no more. How did life end up this way, masked by a face that I feel ok. Now I can peel back the truth, that i'm leaving with you, to a world they can never explore. Chorus (2 different styles)

REBORN

V1:Let these words go unspoken. What I've said has left us broken. All i've gained, all i've lost, i would die at any cost. Lay me down and never woken. Pre Chorus: Mein ganzes licht, alles fur nicht (all my light, all for not) Chorus: The wind will help me rise and hear my cries cuz i've weathered the storm. Whatever it takes, I'm reborn. Im reborn... X3 Solo V2: My deceptions and denial. Have left me treated like a child. Cuts are cleaned, wounds are seamed. And I swear I'lI be redeemed. I've returned from my exile. Pre Chorus Chorus X2

CUTTING AGAINST THE GRAIN

V1: Through sticks and stones you'll die alone. You always make things difficult. That smile, those eyes can't hide the lies. Adds injury to insult. So throw away your friendships and your selfish needs, to feed your ego, that cant take its mind off me. Pre chorus Chorus Help me, to break the link in this chain. Hate me, and make me the one to blame. I'm cutting against the grain. V2: No rock unturned you'll never learn to quit while you're ahead. You helped the blind fall far behind with all the shit you've said. The circulation that's running inside these veins will flood your label. There's no use in bleaching the stains. Chorus Pre chorus: Im cutting against the grain... (3 whispers 1 scream)

DIVIDE AND CONQUER

V1: You were all i ever knew. Raised me up when I withdrew. You were a brother to me as I to you. Wait for me, I'm passing through, to Vallahala. Pre Chorus: The last day i fought by your side, was the day i saw a part of me die. In your name I will divide and conquer. Chorus: Don't... don't you leave me here. This was always my fear. V2: Memories of you I weep. My heart in the dirt buried six feet deep. Closed my eyes but I never sleep. I dream of the day when again we meet... in Valhalla Pre Chorus Chorus Breakdown Pre Chorus (music onlv) Chorus (ivrics in the second half

EMBRACE MY DISASTER

V1: My circles small cuz most of you can't handle. The things i've done when life does not go my way. You don't know me like you're claiming. My mind is twisted and blood is turing to ice. There was a time when I felt compassion, I was there myself. Now this drama is just a distraction, spare me from your hell. Pre Chorus: Drink to the past and leave it all behind you, and toss away the memories that bind you. Propose a toast and join in this occasion. Till pain is gone, we'll bleed out the abrasion. Chorus: A shot to the heart, has torn me apart, when hurt turns to laughter. Put mind over all to find the resolve, a skill I can't master. I'm closing my eyes, this is my demise The image of me is helping you see, embrace my disaster. Bridge: Controlling what's in my mind. Never a compromise. Never a care in the world, is it the saddest thing i'd never say goodbye.